"Marco Island, Florida. It's a great place to live if you've got nothing to live for."

-Jackie Mason

Sweet candy-coated Jesus, I am one whiny bitch.

Hi everybody!

Please excuse my rather glib introduction, but reading some of the earliest journal entries I posted here on DA, I just have to say that I'm one pathetic sad sack.
Ah well, if I can't change my inner nature, I can at least stop polluting the internet with my pseudo-emo bitching. Or better yet, I can make some proactive changes and try and get myself a better station in life instead of trying to vill the void by shouting into the empty, electronic corridors of DA and hoping that one or more of the awesome people I've met here will lend me a sympathetic ear.
(Love you guys! )

Well, I won't elaborate on the circumstances that brought me down here, nor the multiple bricks that not only broke the camel's back but crushed all it's bones and viscera and left it for dead that finally drove me away, but suffice it to say, it's going to feel so good to get back to my ancestral homeland of New England.

I've been in Southwest Florida since October of '06, just over 3 years.
There's a part of me that's learned a lot and has really grown, living completely alone and independently from any long-term friends, family or relatives. There's a part of me that regrets leaving the climate and the potential opportunities I'll have down here.
But then again, Being stuck away from the land where I'm sure I'm best genetically, culturally and environmentally suited to live anyway, I like to pretend for my own peace of mind that I've been on a Whaling voyage for the last three years, earning my humble keep on the high seas.

So yeah, for all intents and purposes, I see the three years spent away from New England as one long Whaling journey made before returning to port in my homeland.



More rational people are allowed to hold much more perversive delusions.

Well, in any case. I gave my two weeks notice at my place of Employ, and me, my long-term friend Glenn and his wife Cait have all found a place to live together.

Now, one chapter of my life has finally, at long, impossibly overdue last, come to a close.

Where I'm going and what I'm going to, I cant be sure. But with trusted friends by my side and my family less than a full continent away, I can only hope it will be better than the pile of professional dissatisfaction and crumpled pages of bitchy, angst-ridden poetry I'll leave behind me for the Alligators to dispose of in Florida.

I started my life on DA in Florida, but I only hope I won't have to end it when I move back home.
I'll be on from time to time until I get settled in my new life.
Take care everyone. I don't have the time or the imagination to express good wishes to those of you who have made my bleak life a little brighter on here.
Thank you all, for everything.

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Oh yeah, and I do find it mildly ironic that having lived in essentially a musical outlet of the Jimmy Buffet Empire for the last 3 years, one of his songs is mildly fitting for my flight from Florida and my return to the frozen north.
Goodnight, everybody!


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Ahhhhhh
Ah, ahhhhhh
Ah, ahhhhhh
As a child on the farm
I was warned of the wiles of the city
Of that demon disguise
There's the dirt in the skies of the city

Well they say the proximity warps their minds
'Til they're shooting one another just pass the time
And we live it appears
Both in spite and in fear of the city

Oooohhh, ooohhhh yeah
Oooohhh

I was constantly told
How our lives were controlled by the city
How they keep us in debt
With the trends that they set it's a pity

Now the beautiful people in the magazines
Got the normal ones living beyond their means
And the things that they said
Made me go in my head to the city

Oooohhh
Ahhhhhhh
Ah, ahhhhhh
Ah, ahhhhhh

When I finally came
There's some things still the same in the city
You still lie under the thumb
Of the rich and the young and the pretty

Well they weren't much different than we might act
If there was that many others stacked and closely packed
It's an ancient idea
But it struck me so clear in the city

Oooohhh, ooohhhh yeah
Oooohhh, ooohhhh yeah
Oooohhh

Ahhhhhh
Ah, ahhhhhh
Ah, ahhhhhh